Even if he does not..

This brave young man Zi-on is most likely now in heaven after saving another person’s life. Hearing his parent’s testimony was painful, yet that faith they had in the Lord deeply moved people’s heart. I was surprised to hear that this young man was the answer to his mom’s prayer and promise unto the Lord, it sounded so similar with someone I know very well. My mom was fasting for 40 days in praying, that if God give her a son then she will give him back to God as a great servant in the kingdom. She was 40yrs old when she fell pregnant. That’s why my bro is 11 yrs younger than me.

All this while I believed, just because he was the answer from God, God will have a special protection upon my brother. I mean, he hasn’t been the ‘great servant in the kingdom’ yet, so it always assured me that no matter what happens God will protect him until he fulfills mom’s vow to the Lord. I realsied today I was painfully wrong. No one is ‘needed’ by God. What IF I lose my brother for some reason, will it makes me all confused about God’s goodness and kindness? Should not.

When Abraham was obeying to God’s strangest order to kill Isaac, his only son, even after promising Abraham that he will have uncountable sons, Abraham did not doubt. Even then his worship unto God did not change a bit. Because? Abraham did not worship God because of the blessings from God, he worshipped and loved God for simply WHO HE IS. As long as God is the same God our worship should be the same. However how many times do I make a mistake and letting the circumstances affect my worship unto him?

‘Praise God, I got a job!’ is a good testimony. but ‘Praise God, I lost my job, but I know he will give me a better one!’ is better testimony. ‘Praise God, I got 7 in my study!’ is a good testimony. but ‘Praise God, I failed this subject but I’m sure God has a purpose for this, I still trust he will bring me through’ is a better testimony. I pray we all will grow to the next level of faith and worship, where we don’t worship God because of something good happened to us, but for whatever happened by God’s divine plan for us. That’s the real faith.

Truly God’s plan is higher than ours, as heaven is higher than the earth. How can an ant even understand what human being is thinking about? Utterly impossible! Why did Keith Green died in a helicopter accident when thousands of people were getting saved at his gospel concert every night? Why did this pastor who were leading and uniting the churches and making the huge difference, got shot down by some unruly person on the street? Was his life wasted? If they were alive, wouldn’t so many more people have been saved? Wasn’t salvation what God cared the most??

Three friends who refused to worship the idol, in front of the blazing furnace they boldly said, ” The God we serve is ABLE TO save us, and he will rescue us from your hand. But EVEN IF HE DOES NOT, we will not serve your idol.” They knew God is not our vending maching, we tell him what to do, and expecting him to do exactly that. Even at times it is so sensible in human understanding, he have all rights to choose otherwise. He is God, not us. It makes it totally impossible to worship God unless we really understand his character, that is, love.

Back to Zi-on, we all are so close to the otherside of life, so close we never even know which side we will be standing next moment. Our life on earth is once, that we should make it so worth living. So what, if I have to live in discomfort and inconvenience for just a little while? So what, if I can’t do what I want to do, I can’t have what I want to have, while I’m stuck on the earth just a little while? One step away we will be with the Lord forever, compare to that, the time in earth is too short, too short. Some people live like they will live forever in this earth, busy storing treasures for their future and comfort. How true, God said ‘where your treasure is, there your heart also.’ Without hope of Heaven we all are in living hell in this earth.

Son of God, make my life worth a drop of your blood. Make my heart grow to the extend of knowing who you really are, and worship you truly for your goodness in every situation, I mean, in EVERY situation. After all is said and done let my heart say a prayer unto you,

‘It is well with my soul, My Lord.’

It’s God

How many times in the bible he simply does things so that we ‘will know that he is God’? He always reveal himself to us, of his holiness and awesomeness, if only we open up our hearts and stop thinking ‘it was just a coincidence.’ No matter how people will try to deny or brush it off, we can’t help it but recognize, that it was the hands of God.

I know in this taylor made lesson from the Holy Spirit for me, only for me, he does things just to let me know that it was him. It was God. When I pouring my heart out in frustration, he is just right there, knowing the alpha and omega of the situation, sometimes holding up the simple anwer, so that I may know that it is Him.

When only the firstborn son and animals died on that night in Egypt, this selectivity brang about the incredible fear of God into the hearts of people. Jesus healed some people so that people will know that He is the Lord. Jesus could choose to swim to the boat on that stormy night, but he chose to WALK on the water, so the disciples will recognize and glorify God’s name. God made donkey talk, when he could just choose to speak to Balaam in his spirit or through another prophet. Don’t you just love the way God does things?

He makes me grin in these moments, and we make another secret story between us. Even when he doesn’t seem to be talking to me much at times, I can be assured that he is listening, he is seeing everything, he is feeling all I feel, and he is right here with me. He doesn’t need to talk to me 24/7 to let me know that he is here with me. But when all is said and done, he brings incredible comforts and encouragements in my soul, that’s so overwherming. And another good thing about him is also, that he exactly knows how to encourage me. How he pushes all the right buttons!

Talking Donkey..