Last week we had to experience another good-bye with our good friend, Luke.
Ever since I belong to this family of Hope, I’ve seen many people come and go. But I still clearly remember my first goodbye, 6 years ago. Our group was so close and united together it never came across to my mind that anybody would ever leave us. So when he left, I couldn’t believe that it was actually happening. In fact the shock was so great that for many days, I totally lost my apetite and could not laugh at anything funny.
After days of severe grieving, I eventually lift my spirit up. And I promised to the Lord. From this time onward, I will never let anyone’s coming or going affect my service to the Lord! Now until this day I am keeping my promise. Many times it is not easy, because being open to somebody means that we are being vurnerable. We cannot establish any deep and genuine friendship without being vurnerable to that person. If we are refusing a friendship because of the fear of being hurt, we are insulting our youth.
When I became a citizen of Australia, I realised that I will have to witness many more departure of friends, I felt somewhat devastated. Anybody would understand what it is like to pour out your heart and love to someone and having to say goodbye without the promise of the future. Even then, I decided in my heart, that I will not be afraid, I will not withdraw any gesture of what I would do and share, knowing that some ones will have to leave me eventually. Our heart can get as strong as we determine them to be.
Luke was jokingly asking, “why aren’t you crying?” I just smiled. It’s because I decided to not allow myself to. Because I have to pick myself up and keep going no matter what happenes..
But!! when I go to Seoul at the end of this year, for real I will reap you off!!! So better start saving up! Mhahahaha.
