Archive for July, 2008

Who am I?

Posted in Uncategorized on July 30, 2008 by Chris_Esther

WHO AM I?  – BY CASTING CROWN

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
‘Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.

Many ppl knew me only after I was already a leader in a local church. Only a few knew me before all this, before God picked me up in the street and did the my-fair-lady-transformation. It is always absolutely mindblowing to me whenever I think about it. 

Many a times my enemy trying to pull me away and blur my vision. ‘Think about all that you are missing out..’ and saying ‘ARE YOU SURE?’ Well. he hasn’t been very creative ever since he asked Adam, ’Did God REALLY say that?..’

My life would have been no more when I was 18. The life after that is from God so I must live it for him. Some say, God gave you the life so you should enjoy. But the life in earth is like a blink of the eye compared to the eternity in heaven. Nothing can be the excuses of the love of world. God gave me a life so that I should enjoy my relationship with him.

Yes my Lord, I am the happiest vapor in the wind coz I am yours..

letting go is not giving up

Posted in Uncategorized on July 14, 2008 by Chris_Esther

Over the weekend I heard of one simple sentence that freed me amazingly.

“Letting go is not giving up”

My! This such a simple sentence was like a revelation to me. I had been suffered a lot because I couldn’t ‘let go’ due to the fear of ‘giving up’. I felt unresponsive if I am to let go. I thought i am ignorant if I don’t keep holding unto it. many moments, it would torment me even in my dream because i could neither give up nor hold on. it was tearing apart my peace into pieces!!

How, God said the truth will set us free. I am already begin to enjoy the new sense of freedom ever since. The entire world seems more brighter now. I feel so light and so positive. It came to me as a new understanding, if we really trust God we can count on him. it’s not in my power to change anything or anyone, but God will make all things right in his due time. Even though at the very moment the things may not going to the way I plan or wish, God will lead the way according to his good plan.

Wow!!!! Thank you God. No more nightmare. I am free indeed.

Interview with ps Willie

Posted in Uncategorized on July 7, 2008 by Chris_Esther

At la dolce vita cafe, Milton.

Q. What was your ‘isaac’ that you had to give up to obey the calling of church planting?

A. When I was 18, I had 2 recording contracts as a singer. When I was offered to go to Taiwan for the tour of my album, I was a pioneering team of hope KL, and had to make a decision whether I will go for the tour which means I will be absent from the church for at least 6 months, or give up the dream of my life. Many suggested me not to give up on my dream as it was the only opportunity that I could be successful as a singer. However after talking to my pastor and to God, I decided to give up on my dream, and choose God’s dream. Ever since then I never look back, and now I can see how God has blessed me and the church tremendously because of the ‘obedience’

Q. Why would God have given you such talent and gifting if God didn’t want you to be a singer?

A. If God has given Isaac to Abraham in such a age and asked him to kill the Isaac, why can’t he give anything to me to teach me how to submit to him and letting go? God allowed Moses to spend 40 years in the wildness, and allowed Joseph so many years before being ready to serve him. It was my decision to submit everything to God because my career as a singer or even my album would be forgotten within few years, but God’s kingdom will last forever. I’d rather invest my life on something that will last forever.

Q. Are you saying our ‘calling’ can be different with our ‘gifting’ or ‘talent’?

A. I am not generalising it is always different, but it can be. Many gospel singers told me why not using your gifting to serve God, then you can do both. However I was in the middle of planting and growing the Hope KL and they needed me, my sheep and the whole church suffered while I was distracted by the singing career. I could not do both building up the church and establishing my singing career. It was about the timing, i was called in such a time as that and I decided to obey God’s calling. To obey is better than sacrifice.

Q. When was the hardest time that you wanted to give up?

A. When I became a UL, i wanted to give up three times. Each time my shepherd prayed together with me, and the third time even allowed me to have few days away, so that I could be refreshed. Finally I overcame the tough year and ever since I didn’t think of giving up again.

Q. what is the benefit, challanges of being a celibate minister?

A. I am not a ‘natural celibate’, but the urgency of gospel / great commission kept me from being committed to the married life. I can’t afford to spend so much time for growing of the family and for the commitment to the family life, when I have to travel so much and has so much things to do. I can be finacially more flexible, and I can spend all my time for the Lord. of course I don’t have an advantages other married couple has, but I submit my marriage life to God, so I am contented.

Q. How do you manage financially, as a full time minister and travel extensively?

A. I never dreamt of buying a property, however God always provides for his servants. I even have a retirement plan. God blessed me with a property few years back. God does take care of his people so take your worries unto God and trust that he is the provider.

Q. What’s the most prominent strength of the hope church?

A. Young and vibrant people. They are energetic, free and not bound by many responsibilities. We must invest on these young people as much as we can, so that they can catch the vision of God in early age. And they will do an amazing and great things for the Lord.

Q. What’s something you want to speak to the young people?

A. In your 20s, explore as many things as possible. Don’t just easily settle with simply your majoy because you have studied it. Experience many things, only then you will begin to discover where God’s calling for you is. In your 30s, start streamline and think what you will do for the rest of your life. In your 40s, be successful in what you decided to do. If you are not focused or not knowing what you would do in this age, you will be very restless and be anxious about your life. and in your 50s, impart your inspiration and share the experience and knowledge to the next generation.

 

Thank you ps willie.. I pray that may God’s hand of protection be with you wherever you go. May God use you even more mightly that many people will be inspired and motivated to follow God at any cost. Thank you for being a great role model to us by living a life of sacrifice..

 

Written/edit by Chris_Esther Lee.

lost dream returns

Posted in Uncategorized on July 1, 2008 by Chris_Esther

My first article has been sent to the newspaper editor. Today’s newspaper has the contributing author’s profile. the other authors are quite a high profile people of the society..and i am the only female.

 
‘병영칼럼’ ‘월요단상’ 필진 7월 1일부터 바뀝니다profile
 
 
◆병영칼럼 집필진▲금기연〈예비역 공군준장·(사)한국강사협회 이사·전 공군10전투비행단장〉
▲박승배〈포항공대 과학철학 교수·애리조나대 철학박사〉
▲배상기〈예비역 해병대소장·㈜진로 상임감사·전 합참전비태세검열실장〉
▲양영채〈Writing Service 대표·나루커뮤니케이션 대표·전 동아일보 기자〉
▲이슬기(Christine Esther Lee)〈호주 거주·이화여대 졸업·호주 퀸스랜드대 졸업·호주 Blue Care 간호사〉
▲이찬휘〈공군기상장교(대위 전역)·헬스경향 의학전문기자(국장)·전 KBS 기상전문기자·SBS 의학전문기자〉
▲임철순〈한국일보 주필·전 한국일보 편집국장〉

◆월요단상 집필진

▲박광서〈순천향대 교수·한국경영사상연구원장·전 한국전문경영인(CEO)학회 과장〉
▲배양일〈예비역 공군중장·연세대 행정대학원 겸임교수·전 공군사관학교장·공군작전사령부 사령관〉
▲조오현〈건국대 국어국문학과 교수·한글학회 감사·외솔회 부회장·전 건국대 문과대학장〉
▲최현수〈국민일보 탐사기획팀장·전 국방부 출입기자 전 경제부 차장〉 

2008.07.01

 

As I write an article and discuss with mom whether this is appropriate for the Korean community and cultural context etc, I felt the familiar sense of passion coming back to me. I always felt so comfortable with papers, whether reading or writing. I used to write to the magazine when I need a gift for someone’s birthday, knowing for sure my articles get chosen, and it did. I used to collect the papers and magazines that my articles were written, however one day stopped doing it when it piled up. Sadly it was a long lost dream of mine to be a writer, because I had to put the food on the table. So I became a nurse. But, I never imagined this opportunity will be given to me after so long years..

After come to Australia this dream seemed to be completely buried, after all, I can’t even pronounce ‘magazine’ properly. I seem to be happy to be a nurse, especially on a pay day. I bought a house, paying off the bills, there are always food on the table..and I still feel something is yet to come. I want to fall in love with the work I’m doing, not just for the sake of a pay cheque. I don’t want to long for the time to finish work everyday of the week, that’s not the life I want to live.

God help me to be more sensitive in hearing your subtle que. So I will not miss out your blessing and your instruction. I would hate to think what I am missing out because of the times I couldn’t listen. Let me be as sharp as a needle in hearing you Lord.