Guarding what’s mine

There are two truths I try to stay keenly aware of when I sense jealousy’s lure. First, God has my back. Second, he has a sovereign plan for my life.

David knew the key to avoiding this trap. “Lord, you alone are my inheritance, my cup of blessing. you guard all that is mine.” (Ps 16:5) I have come to understand that when God has determined that something is mine, I have no need to guard it in the sense of watching over it for fear it will escape. That’s God’s job, not mine.

My responsiblity is to nurture and enjoy the blessing on a daily basis, rather than obsessing over whether it will still be mine tomorrow. Embracing this truth can free you from anxiety about the unknown.

On the other hand, when God, in his wisdom, has devided that something is not to be mine, then i must submit to his plan and release it. surely i will need God’s supernatural intervention to help me to let it go.

i absolutely trust God to guard what is mine. when a child of God succumbs to the pitfall of jealousy, he angages in the ultimate act of unbelief.

- from ‘conquering insecurity’ pg 16.

7 years ago, 3 months into joblessness, on my way to the interview I met my unit leader then. She told me “If this is to be yours, he will give it to you. If it’s not what God’s is giving to you, no matter what you do, you won’t get it.” And she prayed those words for me. It was just as she said. I thought the interview wasn’t very good, but the job has been given to me anyway.

I thought getting the job was up to how good my resume is, and how fluent I will be in the interview. Although I was praying in my lips “if you want you will give to me” in my heart I was still relying upon my pathetic ability to please the nurse manager. I haven’t fully understood what it means to leave it to God and trust him.

Amazing difference is the PEACE I got when I apply this into my life. No longer it is about my performance or capabilty, but it’s up to God’s agenda and desire to accomplish it. And surely no one other than God himself can disturb his sovereign plan. And this has released me from so much of performance stress and sense of heavy responsibility, over leading a unit, shepherding, leading worship, teaching CDS, and many areas of lives like looking for a house, job, future partner, every aspect of life.

When we come to terms with trusting that God guards what’s ours, it gives us so much peace and right attitude in letting it go. No longer be anxious that I may loose what I have, someone else may get the better place than me, or what if I don’t do it successfully as God wanted me to do.

Release yourself from the grip of that kind of bondage.

Boiling

If you want God to cook something, boil the water first.

Joy + Han

It was a beautiful sunny day for a wedding.  I’ve never seen my shepherd so pretty. The first wedding I’ve attended was my 1st shepherd’s wedding at sunnybank. And this is my second shepherd’s wedding. Congrats!!

Weddding day is exciting for all girls who get to dress up and take lots pictures as well. Dreaming, Planning about their own wedding in the future. I want to do the ‘first dance’ on the wedding day, and will make it a ‘good’ shot for the kiss after the bow. Anyway, I want to make it a great fun day..

Here below goes the eligible bachelors of Daniels. I guess it was a great day for them too…happy eyes?

Disciple

The choice has been made.

There is no looking back.

I have stepped over the line.

I won’t let up, back up, give up, or shut up.

My focus is clear, My path straight, My God reliable.

I’m a DISCIPLE of Christ.

…from the poster in front of my desk..

Jesus warned that being his discipleship won’t be easy. To a rich young men who had a willingness but no courage to act, Jesus said ‘Go home’. Certainly following Christ is not for the faint-hearted.

“Anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.” Luke 14:27

Following Christ will cost you everything. That’s if you are really serious about following him to the end. Many people follow a little while and give up when their legs get tired, or when they are hungry, or get irritated by the people, or when forgot where they were going and why.

Looking back the trail of your own footstep, can you see some bloodmark along the way? sweats? dragging of feet? what about crawling? Is there display of evidences of your determination in your footprints? Determination of ‘No matter what it may cost, I will follow Christ!‘ Because, when Jesus was carrying his own cross on that hill, he didn’t give up just because he was bleeding, because it was hurting like nothing else, because he was hungry and thirsty, or because he just didn’t had to. He was determined ‘No matter what it may cost, I will obey my Father’s will.’

This day, does it cost you something to follow Christ? Are you fearful of failure that you don’t even want to start? Are you afraid of missing out what others would enjoy? Are you afraid of being different with others around you? Is it your fear of uncertain future? Is it the pain of giving up something you enjoy? Is it the selfishness? Is it your own plan about your own life? or are you just plain lazy?

Let your sacrifice be the costly worship unto God. When you pick up that cross and moving forward with the determination that costs you something, you are a disciple of Christ.

What are you carrying?