Guarding what’s mine

There are two truths I try to stay keenly aware of when I sense jealousy’s lure. First, God has my back. Second, he has a sovereign plan for my life.

David knew the key to avoiding this trap. “Lord, you alone are my inheritance, my cup of blessing. you guard all that is mine.” (Ps 16:5) I have come to understand that when God has determined that something is mine, I have no need to guard it in the sense of watching over it for fear it will escape. That’s God’s job, not mine.

My responsiblity is to nurture and enjoy the blessing on a daily basis, rather than obsessing over whether it will still be mine tomorrow. Embracing this truth can free you from anxiety about the unknown.

On the other hand, when God, in his wisdom, has devided that something is not to be mine, then i must submit to his plan and release it. surely i will need God’s supernatural intervention to help me to let it go.

i absolutely trust God to guard what is mine. when a child of God succumbs to the pitfall of jealousy, he angages in the ultimate act of unbelief.

- from ‘conquering insecurity’ pg 16.

7 years ago, 3 months into joblessness, on my way to the interview I met my unit leader then. She told me “If this is to be yours, he will give it to you. If it’s not what God’s is giving to you, no matter what you do, you won’t get it.” And she prayed those words for me. It was just as she said. I thought the interview wasn’t very good, but the job has been given to me anyway.

I thought getting the job was up to how good my resume is, and how fluent I will be in the interview. Although I was praying in my lips “if you want you will give to me” in my heart I was still relying upon my pathetic ability to please the nurse manager. I haven’t fully understood what it means to leave it to God and trust him.

Amazing difference is the PEACE I got when I apply this into my life. No longer it is about my performance or capabilty, but it’s up to God’s agenda and desire to accomplish it. And surely no one other than God himself can disturb his sovereign plan. And this has released me from so much of performance stress and sense of heavy responsibility, over leading a unit, shepherding, leading worship, teaching CDS, and many areas of lives like looking for a house, job, future partner, every aspect of life.

When we come to terms with trusting that God guards what’s ours, it gives us so much peace and right attitude in letting it go. No longer be anxious that I may loose what I have, someone else may get the better place than me, or what if I don’t do it successfully as God wanted me to do.

Release yourself from the grip of that kind of bondage.